I tried to get acquainted with my new job as quickly as I could. I enjoyed seeing the children at the school, and had to organize Neighborhood meetings to get insight into the needs of the community. The service area of my new job encompassed Stead, Cold Springs, and included a number of mobile home parks, a disparate income level and different levels of education. I learned a lot from the principal of the school, Debby Derry. I also attended meetings where all of the Family Resource Centers would meet to keep up to date on all of what was happening at each location. These meetings were organized by the director of the Family Resource Centers, Diana Haberland. Diana was very involved in Kiwanis, and she invited me to come to a meeting. The Kiwanis organized work to connect children with a bicycle and teach them to ride safely with a helmet.
The Family Resource Center would also partner with the Marine Corps Toys For Tots to provide children of the community with Christmas presents.
I was overwhelmed with all of the new information: grants, community organization, and balancing work and family. The weather in Stead was very cold and snowy and we would spend a lot of time indoors. My father, a diabetic, was often not well. I started to have panic attacks and saw a doctor. He prescribed me medication for anxiety and depression. I felt disgusted with myself. I was overweight and not providing my body with proper nutrition.
I started to feel a bit better and stupidly quit taking my medicine, something I had been warned not to do. Days later, I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest.